Email 1 - New Year started. In this letter to my Imaginary Friend I am telling him how I spent my New Years Eve this year and some memories from the years that passed. I am talking about movie I watched and how pity it is that some people do not believe that what happens in the movies can also happen in real life. For me my life is like a movie of which manuscript I am writing. I am talking about my work with the cattle which finally was completed quite successfully and about Penny's visit. She told me story about her brother who was a very romantic and loving man but life did not spare him from it's tough tests. Wishes for the New Year for my Imaginary Friend conclude the email.
Email 2 - The difficulties in my marriage continue to grow and it pushes me sometimes down. Some of the comments my husband does hurt me very badly and I feel more and more... helpless. For my husband everything evolves around money, and for me feelings and friendship are the most important values in life. In this email to my Imaginray Friend I am talking about all these issues, the differences between me and my husband and about my feelings in this area.
Email 3 - In this emails to my Imaginary Friend I am talking about issues with my car and how I was lucky to get a new battery. I am also talking about my husband and how strongly he believes that happiness of individual depends on how rich his or her parents are even though he has been proven wrong so many times (I am giving here some examples why our happiness does not depends on the wealth of our parents or on the wealth at all). I am also telling a children story which has a moral that how we see the world actually shows who we really are.
Email 4 - I got bitten by a red-back. This was quite painful experience. My husband was nicer to me in the last couple of weekends and we even managed to have some open fire grill at the place we used to cook when we first moved in to the property. This barbie brought a lot of memories from the years passed. I was thinking about all this what has happened since we moved in and how the property transformed to the lovely place. My husband... he saw all the jobs which have not been completed yet and analysed the situation of our neighbours. This is the topic of my next letter to my Imaginary Friend.
Email 5 - In the last few weeks my yearning for travels is getting stronger and stronger. I wish to escape from the monotony of everyday life to some adventure. Probably my emotional state at the moment is not the best and I need a break to determine what my next step should be. This emails to my Imaginary Friend talks about my longing for remote places and for travels.
Email 6 - I met a work colleague with whom we had a little bit “interesting” situation last year. I have not seen him for a few weeks and now I was not sure how to behave. In this email my Imaginary Friend incarnated the work colleague and I am telling him how I felt when I saw him at work and how difficult it is for me to show emotions as I am afraid of being... not so much hurt as humiliated. And as usually I am also talking about my everyday life on the farm. I also mention how I overcame my spider-phobia.
Email 7 - I was thinking about my married life and what had happened since I got the ring on my finger. How my husband tried to change and break me and how at the end he, instead of breaking me, he broke the little bit of connection we had. It is said to look how we grew apart... but were we ever close together?... This is the topic of this email to my Imaginary Friend.
Email 8 - I went for a walk on the property and it made me think about the time when we bought the land and also about a camping trip I went on with one of my friends a few years ago. I thought about the little things in life and how I miss somebody with whom I could share it.
Email 9 - With my husband we had discussion about if it is worth doing the right thing by others or it prevents us from being successful in life. Though I personaly believe that it is important to always try to do the right thing, I also know that we cannot do something against our will. I am giving two examples of my husband, who tried to do the right thing, but at the end it was a disaster for everybody involved.
Email 10 - Does doing the right thing mean that you love the person you do it for? I do not think so. This was part of my conversation with my parents. My parents are soul-mates happily married for over 40 years and for them love and family is all what matters in life. They had very hard life, but the strong love which connects them helped them to overcome any difficulties they met on their way. My father again reminded me ont he story how they met, and because I find the story very romantic I am telling the story to my Imaginary Friend.
Email 11 - I met the friend who broke contact with me a few months ago and we had a nice chat and even a breakfast together. I was really pleased and happy to see him. In this email to my Imaginary Friend I am talking how important patience hope and faith are – I was hoping that one day my friend will be talking to me again and it has happened.
Email 12 - "Love as if nobody has hurt you before" - this is a common slogan. Easy to say but not easy to do. I met a person who is able to do it and I am amazed by him. This made me also think of trust, which for me is the basic foundation of any relationship. Without trust everything will fall apart. The best example of trust between two friends I have ever seen was my father and one of his friends. This story is also included in this email to my "Imaginary Friend".