You know, I should read your email to the end before I replied... You did not say anything wrong, I was just extremely tired and confused because of the people
yesterday and... completely misunderstood the beginning of your email... I love it that you say so honestly and direct everything you think.
I simply did not expect that you could take it the other way and instead of reading your email to the end I replied... and then I read the email and at the end I am embarrassed because of my reaction (unfortunately I am only human, get tired and make mistakes...) So lets forget about this and please do not change – stay as honest and direct as you are, I love it :)
I was so tired today that at lunchtime when we were chatting with George I simply could not keep my eyes open. At the end I fell asleep on the couch rolled like a
dog (George laughed about me), I was too tired to go to the bedroom... And slept for an hour and half... I am still tired and will go to bed soon, but I am not
as bad as I was in the morning.
It was quite a big week for me. It is a bit crazy with all the driving... Actually I thought I should stay in the city two more nights because of all the events I had, but then on Thursday afternoon... I decided to go home... At work it was as it was and city makes me feel lonely and so on... OK, now I can say that it would be better if I stayed – I did not know if you would have a few minutes for a chat after work :) And I am sorry I was not there for you for a chat...
With drinking... I am not a big expert on it – I do not drink... I simply do not like any alcohol, it is not tasty for me. I know it is very weird... Actually I was
often told that I should start drinking and glass of wine every day is good for you – it relaxes and helps to forget about the daily problems... Hmm... it does not
work for me. I simply do not like wine (I like fresh juice :). If I want to relax I play with Darcy, go for a walk, talk to friends, watch the birds and nature.
Sometimes when I am stressed I will get involved in hard physical work, go for a run or just for a drive or ride on a motorbike. And if I have a problem – I have to
solve it. I do not like the idea of pushing it for later. I try to solve it now, and if I do not have a solution... I just do not think about it and keep it in the
back of my mind and then unexpectedly the solution comes (George cannot understand this part – we can be watching a movie and then suddenly I start talking about
some problem we had during the day and giving a solution. Do not ask me about the connection between the problem and the movie – there is none... This is how my
brain works... Puts unrelated things together and – get solution ;)
And very often if I have any issues I just... write. I have like diaries where I write either what happened during the day or how I feel. In this way I can get my emotions under control or if I miss somebody when I write it gives me a feeling that I am with this person...
So I am not sure if drinking is good or not. Looking at people who drink too much, I do not think it is very healthy... And when we look at life there are plenty of other things than drinking which affect our health in a negative way (including the night-shifts you have... ).
With drinking you have to decide for yourself, I do not have the right to tell you one way or the other. I just want you to know that if there is any way I could help you, I am happy to do this. I am always happy to talk to you – maybe when I will have the other phone it will be easier... I will wait until you tell me which plan is the best – thank you for doing it for me.
With work I think we have similar problem – the narrow-minded people in management. They do not have the necessary skills and knowledge to be in the position they are in and no courage to admit it and to try to learn... And everybody who is below (at least in my department) just do what they are told to do in order to keep the job (which I can understand if people have families and mortgages)... For me – I just would like to do the software and work with the people for whom I develop it... As you know I am like you – I like to get the work done and get some satisfaction from getting it done.
With the car... yes, you are right smaller cars are cheaper in running costs and maintenance. The only problem is the safety on the roads I drive – especially because of the kangaroos. They so often come on the road – just two weeks ago coming down the hills I got a bit frightened – two big Kangaroos jumped out of nowhere direct in front of my car. Luckily I have good breaks so I think I just avoid it – I might have touched one of them, but did not properly hit it. I feel safer in a big car with big bull-bar. I used to have a little Mitsubishi, very good car, never broke down, but... I did not feel safe in it. And also people were constantly cutting me off. Since I have the Jeep with the bull-bar hardly anybody is cutting me off. I was thinking my next car would be Toyota Prado... But I will see...
It would be lovely if we could catch up for lunch some time during the week. Any day (Tuesday-Thursday) suits me, so yes Thursday is OK. I might have a meeting at work at 2pm, but it is usually cancelled anyway, or I do not have to go. But are you sure that coming to town will not get you into any troubles? This is the only thing I do not want to happen to you, cause you any troubles... So if you feel comfortable that you could come to the city for lunch or coffee it would be lovely to see you. Let me know the time and where.
OK, I had better go to bed now – I feel very tired. And I do not think that anybody could convince me that shopping is a good experience (though I do not mind the lunch part, but maybe in a better place than the shopping centre ;). And we were not affected by the fires in the area except for having plenty of smoke. And usually I do not go to any concerts as there are too many people, but who knows I could change my mind :)
I hope you will have a good night and it would be nice to see you next week (but only if it does not cause you any troubles)