I was going to write a bit more tonight, but somehow the day is gone, it got late and I feel very tired. And the last hour I spent on the phone with my parents...
Every Friday I have to call my parents, if not they are panicking, thinking that something bad happened to me or... the opposite, thinking and when they find
the opportunities telling me that I do not want to know them anymore, that I want them to die – simply making me feel bad. And they always are telling me how
much they miss me. Usually this did not have much effect on me as I could not really understand the meaning, but since recently I know how it feels to miss somebody...
I spent the hour on the phone with my parents.
BTW I have to tell you the story about my dog which I missed – this dog was a very important person in my life... So all three persons I ever missed I missed on the same level...
Today I just wanted to tell you that I admire you for the courage you had to tell your wife about your... mistake. Everybody makes mistakes, but hardly anybody
has the courage to admit to them. From my perspective your action was like telling your wife: ”I am sorry for what I did. I love you more than anything”.
Her answer was: “I hate you more than anything. I will destroy you, and now I know how”. She told you to simply stop seeing Dora though she knew that it is
not possible, because... of your business and of your warm-hearted character. You just do not want to hurt anybody and do the best for everybody. You just
needed the time to fix the mistake you did - as you said.
And in regards to trust – you are one of the most trustworthy persons I know. I know plenty of people, but I do not have many friends. Actually currently in this country except of you I have only two other real friends – Mark and Penny. And I trust only my close family and my friends.
And I think that telling the truth is the most important thing. Yes, it can be very painful and hurting a lot, but it is always worth saying it. I will tell
you my story (hopefully tomorrow will have some more time to write) – I also believed that it was the truth that took away everything from me and destroyed my
life, but years later I understood that the truth was... the best thing in my life. This gave me freedom and happiness.
I would love to have more opportunities to talk to you (I had great time on Thursday evening), but I will never encourage you to lie to your wife to catch up with me. There is time for everything in life... And the key to a happy life, except for the truth, is patience. And it is not some slogan I read somewhere, it is what life taught me and what I have been living.
To everything you said yesterday I could tell you a story from my life, but I do not have the time now to write... Just one more thing – you said that there are not any books how to make a marriage work... Yes, it is true, but even if there were, it would not be you who should read them... Your action was actually only a reaction to an action of the other side, which actually damaged the marriage...
I am still not sure on which email to write... I want you to be happy and I am afraid that when your wife notices that you feel better and are happier she starts to control you more... And I believe that the worst that can happen to you is that she can throw you out of the house... I do not want this to happen to you (or anything else bad)... But should it ever happen then... I know I am living far away from the city, but as I said we have spare cottage and you are always welcome here (it is not just a saying, I really mean it; George would be OK as well)
I had better go to bed now. I am always very happy to hear from you and actually kind of waiting for a message from you.
All the best (would like to say something else here, but... to scared, I think you know what I mean...),