It looks like you had a quite productive day today with your study – you are very smart so I am sure that you learn everything very quickly. But everybody
needs a break, so I hope you also got done all you wanted to do outside and that the “bulldozer approach” was more to get everything done, but not to
“run away” from something... I hope that everything at home is going well.
And I really think that it is great that you could reduce the drinking and add the walk into your day (I was so confused yesterday that I do not remember what I said and what I only had in my head... ;)
I had quite a good day. I worked in the morning, but after lunch I went to town and caught up with Penny (George went to pick up our forcing yards, so
he was away for the day). It was great – with Penny we could chat until we almost lost our voices – no time limit! (Usually how long we can chat
depends what George has to do in town) I had to tell her the story about our lunch yesterday and how embarrassed I was but at the same time I loved it.
She could not stop laughing. And by the way I know that when we were leaving the restaurant yesterday I behaved like... Darcy when I get her to the
Vet – I could not wait to get out of there ;)
And of course I do not know how to carry a flower – I hardly ever get any. George bought flowers only once and only because... they were on special in Aldi. OK, I got few times flowers from Adam, but it was very long time ago and I got them at home, so I did not need to carry them anywhere. So thank you for telling me how to carry them :)
And there is one more thing I learned yesterday – it is about myself. I always thought that after all that I went through in life I can have my emotions perfectly under control. People say that you do not know how you react in different situations until you are in this situation. But I had so many examples that I would imagine myself in a particular situation and then when it happened I reacted as I thought I would. I thought that nothing can bring me out of my composure. Obviously I was very wrong and I have to work on myself a lot to come to perfection :) I never even thought I could be in the situation I was in yesterday.
Yesterday when I got home I had the following discussion with George. I said “Buddy gave me a flower and then we went to a fancy restaurant and I had
to carry the flower with me” “Why did you carried the flower? It must be inconvenient” “Buddy told me that it would die if I left it in the car” “Ah,
ok it make sense” answered George and that's it. You see, and you thought that I would need to explain to George why I got a flower from a man...
Not with George, he is interested only in the logical parts – getting a flower from somebody it is not part of any logic.
The only problem with the flower I had at home was that... when I arrived at home I realized that it needs water... I have only one “thing” where I can put flowers in but I could not reach it... I would need to get a ladder and so on – too much work. So first I just put the rose into some container to make sure it would survive the night, and today after George left I could climb the furniture like a monkey (I cannot do this when George is at home, he would say that I lost my mind – obviously I cannot lose something I have never had), got the thing and now the rose is standing in my office on my desk and I can admire it while I am writing to you. Thank you once again.
I know that you are a gentleman and you always know how to behave and what to say and it is nice that you looked out for me, but I still know that I was a disaster yesterday, however I can laugh about this :)
I thought I will tell you a bit about my “experience in behaving like a woman” - it was always very challenging for me. As I already told you, as a kid I
always played with boys with some old cars climbing trees and so on. At grammar school (which was for 8 years; up to 15 years of age) the penalties for
girls were that they had to sit with boys during the lesson. Only for me it was... “Lucky if you do not stop talking I will put you with the girls”. Which
was terrible because firstly it was very boring and secondly they mixed into not their business and got me into more troubles. For example during some lesson
I was quietly reading a book, and they started “You should listen to the teacher and not do something else” Then I said my opinion and then was cry (not me)
and... “Lucky out!”. And it is how I ended up at the door of the school director...
When I was close to 20 years of age my mum sent me to a... model school. Obviously not because of my look (I would not have any chance to make any career there), but because... “You speak like a boy, you move like a boy and you look like a boy”. (It is fact, especially in winter people often addressed me as... “Mister”). So at that school every week for a few hours I had to walk in a funny way. But it was not too bad – I treated it as an exercise. The worst part was that there were only girls and the topics for discussions were – fashion, shoes, bags and boys. And I had no idea and no interest in any of them... My “career” ended when they asked me to come to a photo shooting in a short skirt. I just laughed and said that I do not own any skirt and went to the photo shooting in jeans and T-shirt.
And in my first job in AU the guys would come to me and ask me to lend them a pocket knife or a screw driver or some tools as I was always on my motorbike therefore I had all the necessary equipment. But if somebody would ask me about lipstick then... “Sorry I do not know this word. I do not think it is anything I need on my bike, so I do not think I have it”.
It changed a bit now because of different type of work... I have to put the paint on my face 3 days a week! Terrible how old I look with all this stuff on my face – every Tuesday morning I am getting a shock when I look into the mirror ;)
So I just hope you will not expect me to behave like a woman too often – if yes, then... I need some more training in this ;)
I just remembered a funny experience I had a few weeks ago with one of my colleagues who with her husband was about to start their trip around Australia. I met her a couple of weeks before they left and she made a comment “I am taking only 6 pairs of shoes” And I replied “6 pairs! It is more than I own!”. As you can imagine it is not the answer she expected... She gave me a look... I was embarrassed and wished I had never said it, but I could not turn the time back...
Darcy is having some nightmares and making some crying loud noises – I had better go and wake her up (actually I am writing the email at night-time but I will send it in the morning).
I wrote again much too much, but it feels so good to write to you...
Before I go I just wanted to say that... (as a married woman I probably should not say it, but...) for me with unshaven face you looked really handsome.
And with the hug... it would be lovely if you gave me one. I always like hugs from you. You do not need to be shy, I am the shy and confused one ;) (you did not look shy yesterday, or I was too confused to notice it)
I hope you will have a good day at work, and I also look forward to seeing you on Monday.