Congratulation on reducing your amount of drinks yesterday – well done and hopefully you can keep it going like this :) Did you managed to cancel the wine order? And how did your learning go today?
My day was not too bad – Damian was in the office and I could joke with him and have some fun. And at lunch time I caught up with Mark, which is always a very nice break in the boring day. I was laughing about Damian who has to fill out some stupid form – some kind of survey about changes in the company processes. I was sure that being external I do not have to do it, but… I was wrong, just after 5 pm James came and “Ah, could you please fill one of this as well?” This is not funny any more – I have no idea what should I write there, but I will worry about this tomorrow. Something else to waste my time on ;) However I managed to finish today the page we were talking about and I will upload it to production tomorrow.
What I wrote about the money… I know that you are not interested in money and that you do not think about my salary or judge me based on this. Somehow in Australia I got used to it that people judge others based on their salary (in EU it is not like this) – if you do not live in a few million dollar house then… you are a looser. And I hear from time to time (even from George when he gets angry) – “Do not think that you are successful, there are plenty of people on better salaries than you are”. I do not talk a lot about myself – actually almost only to people whom my stories could help plus I also use them sometimes in my speeches (which I want to use to help people). I do not care if people see my as successful or not – for me I am living my dream and I am free and happy and this is success. When I was back in my country of origin and dreamed to live somewhere where there is a lot of space, have animals around me, ride a motorbike through empty spaces -people just laughed at me that it is unrealistic. And now? Now they are saying that I was lucky. Yes, I am lucky, but I also worked for my luck… Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that I know that one day you will be free of debt and you will have a happy life, life you want to have. And the quickest and best way to get there is to not to worry about the future, do not think about all the debts and how to pay them off. Just think where you want to be in the future and concentrate on doing stuff which you like to do which will bring you to the position you want to be in. When I started studying nobody believed that I will ever finish it. Even my parents told me “maximum one year and you will be back”. It is now over 17 years since I emigrated… Sometimes during my study I had my doubts if I would ever finish it, but at once I pushed the bad thoughts away and I was thinking about the life I wanted to have, about the life I have now. So Buddy, never ever doubt yourself, I know that you will have a very good life in the future, well before you will be 65 years of age. You are the most wonderful person I have ever met (and as you can imagine because of my emigrations and ‘gipsy’ kind of lifestyle I met plenty of people). I have never met somebody who thinks much more about others than about themselves… (Unfortunately for you it is what got you into all these troubles… And what is also sad that there are hardly any people who will understand you… and many who will judge you…) I really found it amazing when that Tuesday after we had dinner you suggested that you could give me a lift to the motel (knowing that you could lose your job for it) or that I could take your car. It showed how wonderful and good natured person you are… I really would like to help you to get out of the troubles you are in. I cannot give you the money as I do not have it myself. But it is not the money you need – you can make it yourself better than I can. It is the strength you are missing (it is why sometimes you are running away to the... bottle), and the strength is something I can help you with…
This week it is lovely to hear from you every day. I wanted to write back to you earlier today, but at work it is not possible…
I hope you will have a wonderful evening and good night and looking forward to see you tomorrow :)